Head over heels or Head held high ?

Once upon a time,
I believed in fairytale romances,
I romanticized holding of hands,
and the long walks in rain...

And then came the time,
when I got smitten by you...
I got carried away by your talks,
and by illusionary efforts & those little things...
Those nothings for you, and signs for me...
The casual friendly for you, and maybe feelings for me..

We had it all,
The tough, emotionally unavailable guy & the sweet, trying to save the world girl,
the confusion, "the ego but 'love'" drama,
the walks & the talks,
the mystery & the intimacy....

And I still do get smitten by that smile,
by that haughty & unnecessary arrogance.
I can still swoon head over heels on you...
But,
But now you see,
I am more fond of walking with my head in air,
held up high....

I can still tolerate your non-senses,
I can still forgive your anti-socialness,
Overlook the apparently awkward' behavior,
just because you ask me to...

I do still think a lot about you,
I still wish you the best in life,
But I am never going to let you know,
about what was, or what is,
Because I have asked me to.

Because I have asked me to,
to wait for some one, and some time,
where I don't have to choose between,
head over heels & head held high !!