Maybe !!

We sit across each other now,

pretending to be interested in gossips or work,

You tell me something high and mighty, 

about someone high and mighty,

And I listen, every word, with rapt attention,
Because I am afraid, that if I stare for a second too long,
I might not be able to go back...

When suddenly, you drop in a casual statement,

which makes me think,
about the thoughts that start with a "Maybe"

Just maybe, you are not pretending to fit in,

Just maybe, you do genuinely care, about me,

Just maybe, you are trying to make up....

Sometimes I wonder, 

why is just being yourself so hard for you....

I know for a fact, that we all are a bunch of misfits here..

Why do you need to have those high walls around me,

and I think I have earned it, 

when I say, high walls of nothingness, and for nothing...

When suddenly, you give me that look,

that glance which makes me go searching for a gasp of breath,

and I think, "Maybe"

Just maybe, you don't know yet,

Just maybe, you are not sure yet,

Just maybe, you are tied in some way.

Sometimes I wonder,

Am I wrong, in treating you the way I do,

Or for treating you really nice?

I don't know if that makes you feel comfortable,

Or it just adds to your discomfort of not being a part of it?

At times, I try and desperately search for something..

Something, and anything that will help me know,

What works for you... 

Because, maybe, no matter what,
I really want to see you settle...

This weird restlessness you have about you,

doesn't really do justice to the presence,

that one would like write about... :P

Sometimes I wonder,

do you even read what I write?

do you ever think of any "Maybe"s,

"Maybe"s that I am a part of....

And I think, "Maybe" !!