My Act of having it together!

Sometimes you meet people,
who unknowingly become a huge part...
A huge part of your solace & peace..
And rarely do you understand
the place they had,
in your act of keeping it together..

You are no more around,
and every thing's falling apart.
I agree we made a mistake-
I shouldn't have pushed you
to act in the play of my greeds...

But you did,
and you tried,
and it shattered,
It also shattered something deep within me,
a reason to smile perhaps...

And don't get me wrong,
you were never the reason for my smiles,
but you were the reason,
for my tears to stop running down my cheek,
almost every time, for years.

Never did I think,
I will have a void,
which my anger & patience couldn't fill.
But alas, here we are!
Where I am still struggling,
to keep on stage-
my act of having it together!